It´s been three months since I´ve had purple hair. I decided to change for the closing of the year. A very exciting year that finished with my first solo show in the United States and the publishing of my first book in coauthorship with Rafael Villegas, a piece of art made with hard work and no overblown egos from either of us. All of this collided with the possibility of living in Los Angeles, city where I am currently and where I tought I´d be living for some years.
Things have been moving. I have been through moments of euphoria, happiness and pride for the rewards of years of hard work. And also through the tremendous pressure stemming from my feeling of not wanting to dissapoint the ones who have placed their faith and resources in me, all this combined with my desire to stay true to myself and the creative crisis that follows a solo show. I don´t like anything of what I am drawing now. The longing, the melancholy for all that has contained me in the past has opened new chambers of my inner world.
As is usual in me, I didn´t listen to voices advising me against coming here for I was convinced that my place was here.
I returned to Guadalajara to dismantle my house. I also went back for the International Book Fair.
All of this I have lived it with purple hair.
In order to have this color on your hair you have to bleach it first, for the dye won´t stick on dark hair. It has to be a white canvas, -yellow in this case. The bleaching process itches, it feels like hundreds of little ants are running amok on your scalp. Once you are blond then the purple dye is applied followed by long minutes of wait that end with a hair wash that rids you of the excess of dye. Then you finally step out of the salon feeling fabulous about your deep purple hair. With purple ears and nape also, but still fabulous.
What nobody explained to me -it was the first time in my life I had dyed my hair- was that each time I´d wash my hair dye was going to come off. I was terrified at first, thinking that I´d step out of the shower with blonde hair again, bewildered at the sight of the purple rivers streaming down my legs. And I haven´t spoken about how my towels, sheets and pillows ended. When I had it retouched, two weeks and a half later and with the Mexico City book presentation coming, the expert gave to me some sort of chocolate hair treatment that was supposed to act as a no-foam shampoo, the all time killer of fantasy hair colors. I used it.
Then I came to LA to finish some details of the show. The horror was how I left the inmaculate towels of our hotel, for in spite of my religious use of a shower cap, the littlest amount of water was enough to cause the dye to run down my nape and for all the mess to start again. At the end of the short visit, I was expecting to be overcharged for the ruined towels but I was lucky. They charged nothing extra.
What I can say for sure is that the look was a complete success. My collectors loved it, the Consulate authorities, the angelenos and it was a super hit among little girls and female custom officers.
I have had it re-dyed twice in LA. Here they also use a helmet-like contraption that dries using heat. I think this has helped the color to last longer and come off less. A dye like this lasts three weeks, afterwards the hair begins to show an ugly blonde mixed with the root´s natural color.
If someone had explained to me all that comes with having a fantasy color on the head I think I had never done it. NowI know I wouldn´t do it again. At least not in all my head.
Going through all this strong changes with a purple mop on my head has been very symbolic. Now that things are calming down, I have left the purple fade little by little, I am sure that the return to a vibrant creative state will coincide with the return of my natural chestnut hair.
And the return to Mexico.